do it alone- kid cudi
<3

do you ever get that feeling that your heart is being stretched and squeezed in opposite directions at the same time?

everything you say condtriDICKKKKKSKSSS everything else you say.
I CAN NEVER GET IT RIGHT.

SOMETHING ALWAYS COMES UP AND I END UP NOT GETTING TO SEE YOU!
Nawwwt cooooool.
I didn't relize how much i missed max barry
i stayed at his house until like 12 last night.
we ate pizza and had a heart to heart.
I AM ALREADY ANXIOUS FOR THIS COMMING WEEKEND!
gettin togetha with my pals maryjane and lucy.

i like how my sister doesn't have time to talk on the phone for ten minutes.
i miss her.

i hope devonte othawise known as stevie is allowed back at hillsboro!

THE WAILERS WAS SO FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOD.
One of the best nights of my life FORSURE.
I want erry night to be like that.
I love Emma and our printer noises. And our new friend Scotty.
Noah Alex Nathan Aubin<3<3<3 im so glad they came toooo.
Why isn't reggae popular?
I wanna change this!











I think a Wailers concert could fix a broken heart.

sometimes i think about the shit you've done
and i just want to cry as long and hard
as it takes for you to get out of my heart,
out of my brain.
because i know i could probably do better
but i dont want to.
i wish i could read your mind.
i can't believe you when you tell me about what you want for us,
if theres even an us.
i know you don't lie a lot to me. at least i hope not anymore.
but the times you have, has hurt me more than ill ever be able to explain
but has definatly put me on edge
my trust in people has never been super high and you've pretty much
made it disappear.
who knows? that might be a good thing so i don't go doing something silly
like falling for a guy who just wants his dick wet but has me convinced im special to him.

"so what have you done all day?"
"...not much of anything really......"
"haaaa. welcome to the village."

peel to the left
peel to the right
heres yo banana and mmm take a bite
gooo bananas go go bananas.

avas over dooin some notecards.
we are about to watch 17 again
i dont care what anyone says,
zac efron is a FOX in that movie.
im glad she's sleeping over.

today didnt go like i wanted it tooo.
ALMOST got caught somewhere i shouldnt have been and lied to get outta trouble
but daaaaamn im bummed.
i ended up goin to toms house with noah alex and cobi
then wound up at the park with nathan aubin skye christian and errrybody i was already with

aspens was so fun last night, its exactly what i needed!
we had the house to ourselves from seven to three in the morning
so of course we took a two hour shower and giggled about boys.
i lovee her so much!

oh & i got a love ring that goes on two fingers
its pretty tight.
LOLZZZZZZZZZZ

im nervous!

i watched a kid get punched in the face today.
funniest shit ever bcuzz he deserved it.
i love austin dowell cuz he laughed really hard about it with me

I HAVE TWO HUGE TESTS TOMMARROW THAT IM NAWWWWT PREPARED FOR.
FUCKKK.
IM ALREADY FAILING THREE CLASSES.
ON THE VERGE OF FREAKING OUTTTT.
FABBULOUSS.
i need a hug and all a's and b's
then my life would be great.
pleaseplease happen.
thats ALLL i ask fooor.

one toke over the line and spirit in the sky are such good songs.

ava is like a diary to me.

best friend vibes are always right, unless they're jealous.

i just wanna be loved.

T0DAY WAS PR3TTAYYYY GR3ATTT.
algebra was straight sleeepin and i passed a test!
wellness was heaven. i made a new friend. who happens to be ridiculously good looking and cool as fuck. one of those girl you never thought you'd actually know.
pierce, cornellius, and de de always make personal finance bearable. i hope i get that touch screen phone from pierce!
& chemistry was aiight. rachel and nikki are cool kids. i wasn't slick when i snuck back in doughh. i think ms organ hates me.
a guy got my number today. i have a feeling we are gonna be good friends, hes one of those people i just click with, ya knoow?
i cant wait to see aspen and skye friday. its funnna be a good break from the village.
i cant wait to see cobi saturday.
i cant wait for sunday even thoo im not sure of my plans yet.
I really want the wailers concert to work out. i hope emma noah and jesse are going with me.
I hope fall break is better than spring break, which will be hard to do but not impossible.
ive gotta say that week was the happiest ive beeen in months.

Last night was JUST WHAT I NEEDED.
i hope the whole year is like that:))
BITCH I MIGHT BE!
hahahah<3
i missed emmma and maryjane.
the reunion was ballinnnnn.

you have changed so much but then again, i don't think you have. i just think ive finally opened my eyes to a reality ive been trying to ignore. i wish i knew who you were but at the same time i dont because the person i (thought?) i knew wasn't a two faced bitch. i wish you could understand that i'd never talk the shit you do about me. ive always had your back and i always will. we've gone through so much but all that vanishes when you have to impress someone new. it'd make it a lot easier for me to start trying to get some respect back for you if you could own up to things. everyone does bitchy things and everyone lies but not to the extent you do. sometimes i think you try to believe the lies you tell so your conciounsce can rest. i try to tell you all of these things, of course not in these words and you seem to sort of listen then start bullshitting me. im not the best friend in the world, but i think i deserve better than how you've been acting.

its "whatever" cuz you aren't worth my emotions. i already wasted enough of 'em on yaaa.

so give me shittttt;

your the one missin' outt.

dear YOU ,

i guess i didn't tell you how thankful i am to have you in my life. you are one of the only people im 100% sure has my back no matter what. what i hate most about friday is i was such a shitty friend, being selfish and irresponsible. you had ever right to be mad because i didn't express how much comming to get me ment to me. today i cried when i read your message that said i love you and always have your back no matter what. ive known you were a good friend but this really proved how amazing you are. i owe you so much. i dont even know where to begin to start making this up to you. i really hope everyone has a friend like you.

xooxoxooxoxo

stupidddbitch.

So i completly forgot i had this! Imaa try & start actually bloggingg:) I read back on those posts from Febuary, it brings a whole fucking lotta memories backkk. But guess what? I'm gonna make sure last year looks like shit compared to this one!

Fifteen dayzzz until school starts

Thirteen dayzzz until i getta see heather

One day until colorado

Zero dayzz until i get to see jesse!

sixty hours of therapy & a court date. helloooo 10th grade..ha

You know when your completely happy?And it seems like everything is as close to perfect as it can get? I almost don't like the feelingg because I feel like somethingg horrible's about to happen and mess it all up.

VVVVV

I just might just find somebody.

And I just might just feel somebody.

:]

Sunshineee.Feel it in my skin. Warmin' up my mind.

Done with Hillsboro swimming. One and a half weeks left of NAC:] 

Sunday, Monday, and today were pretty great.

I'm the happiest I've been in a whilee.

_=_

i want to get out of here

and be with the peoplee i love,

listening to great music,

in a place thats always warm

i want to make a difference.

stop america from completly falling apart.

change the mind set of people.

all anyone does is consume and pollute and judge.

people are going compleltly overboard with new technology and knowledge,

not thinking about anything but themselves.

we arent the only living things on the planet.

what about our kids?

what are their lives going to be like?

forever climbing their way out of the hell we've created?

i mean is there even going to be another generation?

nowadays people automatically don't have friends if you are obesse or don't look like megan fox.

its all about how much you paid for the clothes you're wearing

or who has the newer mac product

none of that changes who you actually are.

wake up.

 I know what they don’t wanna tell you

I-I walk up in the world and cut the lights off

And confidence is the stain they can’t wipe off

Huh, my word is my pride

But wisdom is bleak, and that’s a word from the wise

Served to survive, murdered and bribed

And when it got too heavy I put my burdens aside

So I could pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your fuckin’ head

Bitch, I’ma pick the world up and I’ma drop it on your fuckin’ head

And I could die now, Rebirth motherfucker

Hop up in my spaceship and leave Earth, motherfucker

I’m gone

Motherfucker, I’m gone 

"It's all about progress:]"